Family History

My Grandma with her friends as a kid (she's the one with her mouth open), 1955

Mary Ellen, my great-grandmother in February 1974

My Grandma, Jeannette, August 1960

My mom,  sometime in the 70's

My grandma

My grandma's school photo

Mary Ellen,  year unknown, I love this photo of her so much.

Mary Ellen, year unknown 

My grandma Jeanette and my grandpa Tom, 1968

My grandpa proposing to my grandma, 1968

my mom, 1973

Sugar (great-grandma) and her grandkids, my mom on the bottom right,  1973 

Sugar and my mom, 1972

My mom age 4 1/2, 1974

My mom on the far left and my aunt Heidi in the red.

My papa and my mom, 1974 

My grandpa Tom and my uncle David, year unknown

my mom :3

my mom, 1973

My Grandpa(left) and my great uncle Danny 1969
This is where I get my coolness from~

I have been recently scanning and going through all of my mom's photos and collecting memories from them. I love seeing my mom, my grandparents and great grandparents when they were younger and seeing where I got all my good looks from hehe. there's something about all these old photos that makes me feel ten times closer to my family. As much as I try to act like my family hasn't impacted me, I now realize that they, especially the women in my family have had the greatest impact on my life. My great-grandma, who we just call Sugar because she insists she hates being called grandma or granny, tells brilliant stories of our family in better times. I want my family in current times to go back to this. good stories, not bad ones. I want to bring nothing but good to my life and show that everything anyone has done to me is for goodness. I want to post a ton more photos, but im going to save them for another post, where you will see how much my mom and I look like we could be twins and how all the women in my family practically could all be sisters.

Real Life

For a minute I was lost,
I looked away
My destination was unknown,
My destination was unknown.

Gravity Rides Everything

In the motions and the things that you say
It all will fall, fall right into place
As fruit drops, flesh it sags
Everything will fall right into place

Tallahassee in Spring

Kids on Holiday pt. 2

Jamaica, Queens, NYC

169th st F train station

Lana Dog Rey

nyc > jax

My friends and I at Shake Shack

Rockefeller Center

Staten Island Ferry

I finally got film developed from last month. I'm breaking all these photos into a few posts because there are soooo many! these are some more photos from my nyc trip! and only 26 more days left until i go to Munich.

When You Clean...

Since we have a month to go before school is over, I decided to clean out my desk to try to get rid of things  I don't need. In doing so, I discovered 22 rolls of undeveloped film that I've shot over the past year. I always keep buying more film but never getting anything developed. SO I get a nice paycheck on friday and I'm going to go get maybe 8 or so rolls developed.

I also found two light up yo-yos, a fake rubber snake, a bag full of shells from the beach, three coloring books, two puzzles, and a million things I thought I'd lost.

Stress

In exactly 28 days I will be completing my second year of studies at my university. In the next 28 days I have 4 more tests, 3 more papers and one final exam separating me from summer. I will also be leaving the country for 14 months in 38 days. Each day that passes, I get more and more anxious and nervous and I almost can't believe that this is happening. Ever since I started learning french I have wanted to go to Europe, and I've wanted to go back to Germany just because I feel like I have some connection there since it's where I was born, although I don't remember very much. I bought my plane ticket to Munich a week ago. I'm sorry, I just, have been waiting for this for so long no words I use could accurately describe this. I'm sad to be leaving my friends because I've made some great ones this year and I'm gonna miss them all like crazy while i'm gone.

So I guess what I'm saying is I'm under a lot of stress right now, trying to fit everything into the next month that I need to get done before I leave. I need to visit relatives and hang out with friends and go to appointments and finish this semester off on a good note. I'm going to make the most of the next 4 weeks and then I will be overseas living my dream.